It's the end of the first week of classes, and after 25 degree evaluations, several meltdowns over the years, way too many late nights perpetrating work ethic, it finally hit me that I am not only a senior, but am about to turn the "glorious" 21 years old in a few days. Which to be honest...just feels like any other birthday. I think I'm just have that weird "I feel so old/why the f*ckpops am I still in this piece/why are you all such people children???" feeling, and I refuse to let it get the best of me.
I say this having done some serious thinking over the years, and realized that I don't want to leave college with any sort of baggage, anything left undone, unsaid, or unfelt, and especially leave college bitter about what I did and didn't do. Basically I refuse to leave college the way I left high school. Because personally, I don't think that's a wise decision- trying to enter the "real world" with all that unnecessary junk. And with that realization, I've been walking around feeling lighter and freeing then I have in a very long time. But it cause also be the fact that I don't give no sh*ts about what everyone else is doing. - insert shrug here- Either way, I don't mind the feeling at all.
Now granted, everyone is terrified to figure what the hell they are doing with themselves (myself completely included) after college. And at first, I was certainly one of those people who fretted. A LOT. (I'm not gonna front...I still secretly do. But definitely not as often...) But, I've done a lot of good work, and will continue to do good work, and just be positive about might be in store for me.
