It's all apart of the growth process...I promise

Sometimes I wonder if college is really a waste of time. Or rather...if it is a waste of really good energy that can be used to serve better things. I haven't figured that out what those "better things are" yet, but a while ago I was talking to an OC grad and we both kinda verbalized that college has in fact made you dumber in a lot of ways. Like how to confront your peers and challenges sans passive aggressiveness. Or how to feel empowered...truly empowered and not the manufactured, doctored kind Liberal Arts intitutions and degrees think we get. Or how to just be efficent with the tools you have.

I say this cause I've started misspelling the most obvious words...and have started to forget how to articulate a point concisely. Random I know...but hey...this is me who's talking.

Anyways...I really do wonder what my degrees are going to do for me. Especially cause I have a life plan that is completely different from what I planned in mind. But I guess the whole...life falling apart business is apart of the growth process.

I'm been really tired as of late- cause I've just been busy. I will finally admit to myself and everyone else that I am in fact...a workaholic. - Insert shrug -. It can't be helped. With parents and a sister like mine...one must be on their toes all the time. - Insert crouching fight stance-.But with this sense of tiredness, I've been registering this sense of change. It's almost like a ringing in your ears but gentler. I feel like something really big and possibly life changing is about to ensue. I can't tell if it will be a good thing or not. Maybe it's the fact that fall has come. Or maybe it's something else entirely....