You never know till you get there. And by there I mean home.

So I have FINALLY reached home...and have literally slept around the clock. As a result from all of my hard work and misdeeds during the semester, my body and my brain were like 'Oh life? Things to do?? No thank you." Which I will respect. For the time being. But I had one of the most interesting rides back from Oberlin to NJ in a very long time. What was really interesting was that I have known the guy I rode with since my freshman year...yet never really got past the whole "let's get to know you" level. And it turns out, our perspectives on life/life in Oberlin, relationships, who you are and what you do were very similar. Both of us talked about what it means to grow as a person in Oberlin, and how some folks don't necessarily want to...or as this friend pointed out, take a completely different approach than I do. Which was really respectful to hear. Granted- this hasn't been the first time that I heard this but it was still important to hear it again (besides...I'm a Virgo...and stubborn as hell. Leave me be...).

Which got me thinking about this past semester. I will honestly say that I am glad that it is over. But surprised that I went through it...and managed to come through with grace (for the most part), people that surprised me with support, honesty, and friendship that I only hoped about. But I also expected and got what I have been accustomed to...people that play with your emotions, folks who lie, and folks who do so and know better and some that don't. This semester was tumultous...full of emotions that I learned to become reacquainted with. Whether for the better or for the worse I haven't figured out yet. It's hard to take a look at yourself- even when you do it as often as I do. Especially cause you keep changing everyday and that is unbelievable.

I feel like I spent a lot of this semester trying to pick up the pieces so to speak. Except at a certain point they seemed to be everyone else's but my own. And attracting things that are not the most positive for me. But then there were other times when the world seemed to be right in line with what I needed spiritually and what I needed to do. And damn it to all those that picked up that essence I was trying to keep for myself. The no good lazy snake-in-da-grass fools (lol...extra Caribbean moment there). But with that being said...I am slowly and stubbornly reconizing that the Universe gives you gifts and puts you through things that you need to get to where you should really be. That is...only if you decide to look towards grace. I'm sure someone wiser than myself said 'You never know where you're going until you get there'. Hopefully we'll all just be happy when we arrive....