So this past weekend was July 4th. And for the first time in...forever, I did nothing for it. Didn't go to a barbecue, didn't watch fireworks, didn't eat good American hot dogs and burgers as a good American should. Instead, I thought about how on that fateful day back in 1776 (which I knew practically off the top of my head!!), American colonists failed to see the beautiful irony of fighting for their right to freedom, as they held on steadfast to color politics and beliefs in the necessity of slavery. And....how they probably didn't eat hot dogs and burgers come victory, ans where did they come from (of course besides animals)!!!
Instead, I just relaxed as best as I could in my friend's apartment, and watched all kinds of movies. Productive? Absolutely not. Pleasant? Positively yes. It was much needed though. Who would've though theory would be so exhausting.....
In all seriousness though, I just relaxed and played Gaia all day. And wrote songs. And thought if the package I sent for my papa's birthday would make it back home in time. But I had some "conversations" with my sister that really rubbed me the wrong way. I won't really get into it completely, but it all started with a couch, turned into a fight about my clarity as a person, and my being "coddled" by everyone I know basically, and ended up taking about my "social circle" which my sister concluded as non-existent. So I was mad. Really really mad. Like...I haven't been this mad in such a long time I started to hyperventilate mad. *Sigh*. Did I learn from it though? Maybe. I learned that I'm not comfortable telling things to my sister. Or to anyone - and considering this is a blog I fully recognize the irony. But seriously, is it wrong if I like to spend time by myself doing what I want, and not have to worry about stupid people, feelings and things like that? Maybe? Don't get me wrong...friends are nice sometimes....but not enough to make me like people on a regular basis.
I get this from my dad. He doesn't really do people either. So I dedicate this blog to my pops, who always taught me that family is always "better" than friends, and that stupid people are everywhere.
Oh...and I dedicate it to the all the Independence Days of communities of color who are still unrecognized and unaided and where you have to look up when liberation occurred if at all achieved, while no one dares forget Freedom in the Colonies.
And to Mudd for having Wi-fi. My computer is acting extra defunct at my friend's apartment.
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